| I feel old |
[18 Jul 2009|01:00am] |
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It has come to a point where I have to decide if I will put the effort into keeping in touch with Uni friends, or let them slide into the mists of obscurity, and the worst thing is I have no one to talk with about it. I roleplay, I go to video night and watch Buffy and Big Bang Theory, but I don't think I have any friends I can talk about adult things with. Even Erin has no clue when it comes to engaging me on this level. And what do I do? Blurt it on the LJ where a tiny number of people will briefly consider it as it slides down the page...
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| Grinding |
[17 Jul 2009|10:43am] |
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Life moves on. I've been having a hard time waking up before twelve, despite alarms and other efforts. Am I getting old? Am I catching up on the sleep I lost while working? I don't know, but I hope it's just a phase. I feel like I'm missing too much.
Had some weird dreams last night, but one took the cake. I'm sitting down talking to someone I haven't talked to in awhile about my uni days. She's teaching, talking about how everyone else I knew from uni is teaching and asking why I'm not teaching. Not only was this a big, melancholy nostalgia hit for all the people I've lost touch with, but has made me think about where I am in life. Am I ahead of the curve? Behind? After six plus years at uni and sitting on the dole since, with a brief three month stint telemarketing, it's not hard to feel like I'm falling behind, failing at the game of life. Some bad dice rolls, or some bad choices? I don't know.
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[27 Jun 2009|01:03pm] |
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Well, what can I say. Time flows, and some things get stuck on the bank amongst the weeds and fallen logs.
And, every now and again, you make your way back and pick those things out of the mud.
Well, where am I? Luna Park stopped giving me shifts, but never actually fired me. I got full time work at Telstra as a Sales Professional(telemarketer), spent three months there and quit because I came into work one morning, sat at my desk, an burst into tears. Apparently a job I am in only for the money, and requires me to lie constantly isn't suited to me. Who'd have guessed? So, subsequently I'm back on Centrelink payments and fishing for work again. Hope I have better luck this time.
Still with Erin, figure I always will be, but time have been tough lately. At least that's getting better. Friends are still friends, for the most part, and life continues. Finally got a diagnosis for my chronic headaches, but they still can't cure it.
At the end of the day I'm left wondering, what am I supposed to do? What will be my Magnum Opus?
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| Update? |
[13 Oct 2008|11:04am] |
Well, some of you may be surprised I even exist, but surprise anyway.
I'm still in the same job, still in the same house. House mates have changed, I've finally finished uni, am looking for a full time job, basically giving this adult thing a go.
Apart from that, business as usual. Too boring for LJ :(
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| Update |
[01 Feb 2007|07:40pm] |
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Well, I think it is long past time to update this journal. Here goes.
The relationship with my partner just keeps getting better. Not in the ‘crazy, whirlwind’ better, but in the ‘hi honey, I’m home’ better that I have always preferred.
I have managed to dodge the proverbial bullet and am still at uni, despite some hairy moments with the exclusions board. I just have to keep myself focused on succeeding in my classes.
I have managed to get a flexible, fun job with a reasonable rate of pay. The commute is a pain, but you can’t have everything.
A long running friend of mine has moved into my place, at least on a semi-permanent basis. This is turning out really well so far, of which I am glad.
In sort, everything is going pretty well, which is a change.
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| Exams |
[03 Nov 2006|01:52am] |
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I am awesome beyond mortal comprehension of the word! My towering genius spans into the nether reaches of human possibility and dwarfs those who bask in the radiated warmth of my god-like mental prowess. All will look upon me and despair.*
*Translation: I’m really chuffed with my exam progress. Of the two exams I had, the first, plant responses to their environment, I am quietly pleased with. The second, biology of Australian vertebrates, I am not so quietly pleased with. This especially good, because a high mark in this subject increases my chances of getting into Honours enormously.
Oh, just an apology for my overweening pomposity, but need I say again, I’m chuffed.
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[31 Oct 2006|01:08am] |
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Things have been a bit mixed lately. My sleep cycle appears to be 10:30am to 3:00am, which is not brilliant, I’m having to study heard, so hard in fact that I’ve cancelled role-playing to get more time. This, coupled with my other game being on exam related hiatus, means I am suffering some major withdrawal. On top of that, finances and job prospects are grim, so I’m stressed on that front too. Did I say things were mixed? I meant bad :(
On the other hand, my first exam turns out to be a day later than I thought.
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| Well.... |
[03 Oct 2006|12:18pm] |
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Things continue to be unpleasant. CenterLink have once again dashed my hopes for humanity :(
On a slightly brighter note, RP is good as ever and I've recently made a foray into the art community, first by being on deviantArt, then by submitting photos. I am currently working on getting a sketch up, too.
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[19 Jul 2006|03:21pm] |
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Found out that the bad mark wasn't a typo, I just suck that bad. This means either I need to pick up another subject this samester, or come back next semester for ONE CLASS :(
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| Results |
[13 Jul 2006|02:40pm] |
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I just checked ,my results and nearly fell out of the chair.
I only got a 63 on my "Climate in Geological Time' and I failed my plant ecology subject! With a 46! Now, I was under the impression I got a decent mark on both my essay and my project, so I must have really bodged my exam. I will definatly have to ask about that.
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| Update |
[06 Jul 2006|10:20pm] |
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Rammstien - Links 2 3 4 |
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It’s been a long while since I posted anything decent in this, so here goes.
My other half and I are still going strong. We are living together now, but we have people over so often, it barely feels like it sometimes :)
All my exams and stuff are over. Now I’m waiting on the results. What mark I get will decide if I do honours or teaching, so it’s quite important.
Got owned at a recent Necromunda tournament run by the Nunawading Wargamers Association. Not only did I loose all four games, but I had a ‘dismal victory points total’. Whimper.
RP goes well, despite my lack of internet restricting my ability to access Rpol. All my table top games are kick arse though (and only one is run by me).
Well, that’s a brief summery of my goings on, enjoy.
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[30 May 2006|11:26am] |
 | You scored as Fantasy Goth. You are a Fantasy Goth. You may or may not actually be a goth, but "normal" folks see you as one of those weird kids, and you are probably considered a geek by quite a few.
Fantasy Goth | | 100% | Romantic Goth | | 92% | Old-school Goth | | 83% | Ethereal Goth | | 71% | Anything-Goes Goth | | 63% | Industrial/Rivet-Head | | 54% | Understanding Outsider | | 38% | Death Rocker | | 33% | Perky Goff | | 29% | Confused Outsider | | 21% | Cyber-goth | | 13% | </td>
What subcategory of Goth best fits you?
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[29 May 2006|01:07pm] |
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Take a look at your LJ friends list, then list up to 10 things you want to say to 10 different friends
DO NOT state who these people are
DO NOT confirm or deny any "comment speculation"
1) Where the hell did you go?
2) It's been too long.
3) I'm always here.
4) I remember being better friends than we are.
5) I always miss you, up till the point I see you again.
6) You've always confused me.
7) I've always secretly looked up to you.
8) I'm sorry I've never been able to help.
9) I'm not even sure who you are.
10) I've never plucked up the courage to say I've never liked you.
That was cathartic :|
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| Return |
[24 Apr 2006|10:07am] |
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Back from five day field trip to the Grampians. Long, tiring and surrounded by plant people. Not the most fun I've had, but not the least either.
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| The left hand takes, the right hand gives. |
[30 Mar 2006|06:32am] |
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Things are never good in all places at once. No matter how good one area is, another slides.
I am not a student at the moment. My fees for first semester have not been paid yet and this has had two effects. Firstly, I am very behind on my work, because of lost computer access. Secondly, I have to pay shod loads of money to get back in. Not good.
On the other hand, finally working again. Not slept at my fathers house in 3 weeks. Erin is fine.
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| Only the penitant man shall pass. |
[15 Feb 2006|08:57am] |
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Crawl under rock and die. |
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I have a major confession to make.
A friend rang me last night about their problems. This was at 11pm and I was just about to collapse in bed. I was rather short with them and at one stage said,
"I'm sympathetic to your problems and the shit in your life, but not at this hour."
I realized the moment I said it that it was entirely the wrong thing to say, but it had already been said. I tried to back peddle a bit, but with minimal success. They are turning up this morning and I intend to throw myself on their mercy (slight as it may be).
The intention of this post is to revel this transgression to the people whom I value most and whose opinions are the only ones that matter to me. This is not for the purposes of sympathy, the intention is that, by virtue of a public declaration of guilt I can demonstrate to this individual the depth of remorse I feel over this ill conceived comment. I leave my self bare on in the LJ stocks. Feel free to throw fruit.
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| House Moving |
[12 Feb 2006|11:59am] |
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Well, I didn't actually move the house...
Me and my father just vacated our rental property and moved into a new one. Dad will never see this so...let the ranting begin
1. Missed out on moving NEXT DOOR to GF by a MATTER OF HOURS. Bloody TG Newton took their bloody time getting back to dad, so by the time they did he had already signed at the new place.
2. The new place is in Noble Park.
3. The new place is TINY. One of ten granny-flat sized POS's. I ditched a wardrobe and a desk and could still only just fit my stuff in the room!
4. The blinds are pink, the counter tops are pink. When the sun shines on the blinds THE WHOLE HOUSE LOOKS PINK.
I feel so much better for doing that...
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| Luminous beings are we, not this crude matter. |
[24 Jan 2006|09:29am] |
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Well, hands up if you hate centerlink…
Because they have removed/never had the ‘away from home for x months’ criteria for counting as independent, I am officially unable to get any money from them. Which means that my dreams of moving in with Erin will have to wait. Exceedingly frustrating >:-|
Went to see Underworld Two recently, then clubbing at Ragnarok(sp?) after. Very good, for the most part. A few trepidations to begin with, but I got over it pretty quickly.
Back from house-sitting. A job well done, even if I do say so myself.
Now it’s just the long wait for Uni to start…
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| Holiday Senopsis |
[03 Jan 2006|09:59pm] |
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Well, Christmas was fun, even if I felt a bit like a ping pong ball in the process. To from mums to dads on Friday night, back to mums Saturday night, to Mel's parents then Erin's parents on Sunday then back to Erin's. Did I mention that Mel's parents are in Moe and Erin's in Trafalgar? Ping...Pong....
Present haul was good, but I think its a bit vulgar to brag about it. Still, very happy!!
Holiday lull saw me, Erin, Mel and Damian go off and see the Goblet of Fire...very cool. Not much else, though I'm in negotiation with dad about him supporting me if I move out. Oh...and he got served with divorce papers. Happy New Year dad :|
New Years was...interesting. Went to Damian's and played ORIGINAL ZELDA!!! Very cool. Oh, and World of Warcraft, Age of Mythologies etc. Did I mention ORIGINAL ZELDA!!! Apart from that, things were rather tame.
Well, things are not too bad, so I'll write more when they are.
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